Now that you found me, please don’t ever let me go. I’ll try not to get mad even when I’m jealous because I trust you. I’ll try to be a good listener so that you know that you can talk to me about everything. I’ll try to understand you and not let argument come between us. I’ll try to be honest with you and tell you if something’s bugging me. I’ll try to be everything you need because I want us to last. and I’ll try to give you the best love story that you’ve been dreaming about.
Please, ask me to stop before my world starts to revolve around you. Please, ask me to stay away before I can’t let you go anymore. Please, ask me to leave before I choose to stay for good. Please, ask me to not love you before my feelings goes out of hand. Please, ask me now because I am starting to fall for you.
Someday I will wake up next to you and thank God for the chance to be in your presence. Someday I will be the first voice you’ll hear in the morning and I’ll listen to yours as my favorite sound. Someday I will be able to hold your hand and watch our hands intertwine perfectly. Someday I will watch the stars in the sky with you by my side and steal glances because I won’t be able to believe that you are now here with me. Someday I will be everything you need your best friend, partner in crime and your number one fan. Someday it will be you and me and the long wait will be worth it.
I might not know what you really feel
I might not know how hard it is for you to pretend everything is okay
I might not know how unfair you see life
and I might not know how long your heart can handle the pain
but I just want you to know
that I hope that everyday, I can do something to take away the pain
that I hope you’ll know how great you are
that I hope someday you’ll find the person who will love you and not let you go
that as long as I breathe
I’ll be here ready to listen to your life’s rants
ready to make you feel how you should be loved
because you are meant to be loved with someone’s whole heart
meant to be taken care of with someone’s whole might
and meant to be valued as someone’s most valuable possession
you are you and because of that I love you!
It’s the movie people are talking about, people wants to get ahead to spoil it out or just to feel good about themselves because they’ve seen it first. but for me, I just want to see it for the fun and excitement it built since Infinity War. but being here, in this jampacked cinema. With the lights off and people mumbling with how excited they are. All I can feel is the emptyness it gave. I remember the last time I was here, It was better than this. I might didn’t get the chance to hold your hand, or put my arm around you. but it was worth it. and I’ll choose to be there for a hundred times again with you than to be here alone. feeling incomplete because you are the missing piece in this moment. I won’t forget you breathing next to me. and how I enjoy stealing glances on your beautiful face. how you gasped for every shocking part. how you laughed when RDJ got it good. how you ask questions to clarify things and how you just made that night perfect!
I don’t know where you are right now. what you are going through, are you happy in someone’s presence or are you enjoying the single life.
I might not know if you are slowly picking yourself to be whole again or just going through a recent heart break.
But one things for sure, I’ll be here.
waiting for you, fixing myself to be the best for you and continuously learning to be ready to love you just how you are meant to be love.
I’ll be here and by that time, no more games, no more immature thoughts, no more egos.
just me, loving you whole heartedly because you don’t deserve to be half loved.
you deserve a love that will remind you everyday that you are worth it, a love that will make you feel like the most precious gem on earth, a love that will be willing to move mountains just to make you happy.
I hate this, I hate counting out days until you say goodbye.
I hate that you are not the first person I see when I wake up and the last person I say goodnight to, I hate that I won’t get to see you everyday. I hate that I won’t see that smile that always lightens up my day, that crumpled brows that always puts me in silence, that laugh that is contagious and that beautiful face that always puts me in awe.
I’m not prepared for this.
I’m not and I don’t want you to go, things might not sink yet in my head but you just don’t know how scared I am with what the future holds. Lots of what ifs that makes me over think. Makes me scared to face that this could be the end of our story.
I’ll miss the late nights talks on the balcony, the face you make when you find me annoying, the way you mimic my laugh, the way you memorize and hated my puppy dog eyes, and the way we always, always fight everyday.
But I guess it is something I have to accept and just learn to forget.
Am I drunk? Or just sleepy? I can’t stay awake. My head is spinning and I’m definitely on the verge of puking, so I slow down and just stop things from moving. I sit still as I feel her heat seeping into me. I don’t want to move away. I know I might regret it for the rest of the day, for weeks, or even for months, but I lean on the other side of the sofa anyway.
I have to or I won’t have control over the alcohol that’s starting to kick in. I want to stay connected to her to be assured that she is close, that she will not leave. I push my luck and put my hand on her knees. It stays there and I move it onto her lap. My eyes are close the whole time but I can feel our hands touching whenever she moves or does something with her phone. I can feel her moving next to me as she sings and moves to the beat of the sounds while my hand stays in its rightful place. This is good. This is the heat that can calm my every nerve, and yes! This is where I just want to stay. Near her. I don’t want to leave. I don’t want this moment to end. I might not be able to hold her hand the way I always wanted to but just the thought of her this close is more than enough for me.
I’m just thankful that this is happening, but all happiness has to come to an end. The party ends and she takes my hand off her lap and puts it back on mine. I feel her move and I know that she is about to move away. My heart begs for her to stay and my mind wants me to do something about it. Stop her. She leaves right before I even make a move, and she never comes back.